Over the past few months I have been thinking a lot about what I do and how I can help make a difference. How can I - a photographer really make a difference?!
As you all know I have photographed brand spankin' new babies and seeing them minutes after birth is such an amazing time to capture. The thrill of the parents and family and the new life just blows me away. I have to tell myself to focus so I can capture those quick little moments. I really feel honored to do what I do. To produce a tangible product for people so they can have those moments for the rest of their life, long after they've forgotten what the hospital room looked like or what it looked like when their new little one had their first bath. A beautiful product where the subject is highlighted and you are drawn into that very moment. Now, I am not talking about a point and shoot photo of a first bath where the doctors arm and large head in the foreground is what you notice first - I am talking about a carefully choreographed photo that you have a professional capture. I get to do that!!! How cool is my job!
A week or so after the Keller Baby Shoot , one of our friends lost their new born baby. He was only alive for a couple of hours before they realized he was born without kidneys. It was extremely tragic. It was so hard to hear about our friends loss. It was the extreme opposite from the miraculous birth I had witnessed a week earlier. Our friends asked us to edit the photos taken of their little one and I was so honored to be asked I jumped at the chance. These were photos that family had taken for them. I worked on cropping, converting to black and white and a little photo shop edits here and there. They were so incredibly personal I couldn't believe they entrusted me with such precious photographs. I wanted to do this little beautiful life justice. I was producing something that the parents would have for life, their only lasting memory of one of their most precious possessions. It was heartbreaking and at the same time so fulfilling. I cried as sent them to print and packaged them up for the parents. What was I to do with these contrasts? I realized I was giving these parents the same lasting memories just like I had the first. After wrestling with it for some time I came to the same conclusion, I get to do that. How cool is my job.
After helping out our friends I realized I wanted to do that more. I had heard of a non-profit organization called, Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep. They commission photographers to take photographs for terminally ill children and babies, stillborn babies, etc. in their area. I had heard about this organization before and I didn't feel that I was ready to commit to something like that until now. I really felt like God had prepared me for this. It takes me a long time to warm up to certain ideas - especially when they seem scary. The neatest thing was it wasn't scary at all, it was one of the most beautiful experiences I have ever had. I trust that God will continue to prepare me for all circumstances where photography is concerned.
If you have the time you should check out this site: NILMDTS
It is really a beautiful service. Get involved if you can!
7 comments:
really beautiful, sis. you are quite lovely, you know that? i think my favorite blog of yours to date - i love you crazy, girl.
hearing you tell about this part of your journey, and where you are allowing it to take you has moved me in a very deep way. you ARE making a difference - and yes, what an amazing privilege.
This is so amazing, Anna.
I came home from a birth on Monday feeling many of the same feelings...feelings of doing something that truly matters, and it's really amazing that you are feeling many of the same things.
I can't imagine not having professional photos from Amelie's birth..it was such an amazing spiritual experience, and having those pictures capture all of that so perfectly.
NILMDTS is a wonderful organization and many many other doulas I have talked to have referred their clients who have suffered loss in that way, to that organization.
I'm so proud to know you and Cameron, you are just a lovely pair of people:)
Miss you!
So proud of you Anna! I have often asked myself the same question. I know you are making a difference!
~Amy
not to sound cheesey, but this was really touching, thanks for posting it anna :)
Sweet Anna,
I love your heart. I love your spirit. I love your passion. I love your compassion. I love YOU!
wow Anna, what a gift. I'm so inspired by you and I'm so glad God has given you not only this amazing gift, but the opportunity to use that gift for His good purposes. That's amazing.
And yes, I know, I'm like a month late commenting...it's been a busy month and just realized I let some of your posts slip through the cracks.=)
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